I heard that up to one in two Christian men struggles with a porn addiction and since I am one of those men, I thought about writing a short article about the struggle I find myself in and how I deal with living a life with which I meet. a smile on my face.

The guilt and shame surrounding porn addiction are horrendous. You have a brief moment of pleasure; you get your quick fix and then guilt comes like a heavy blanket overwhelming you. There has to be a better way than a constant quick fix and then days of embarrassment.

You can’t just have so much porn that you wear away your addiction. I am sure that many of you, one of those who have fallen from grace, have thought to yourself that you can also sin again and again while falling. Many of you, like me, have thought that you might just get tired of addiction and overload. But addiction is a beast, and a devouring fire that will take us as long as you want to give it. There is simply no upper limit to the amount of porn you can view, there seems to be no limit if you have enough bandwidth on your internet plan.

So we have established that addiction cannot be ended, how about quitting all at once? That works for some and has worked for me for periods of up to three months at a time, but it always seems to me that there is at least some trigger that sends me back to the computer and a closed door. It is terrible and fills me with remorse and shame.

Being a person who has hundreds of articles on the Internet and hundreds of videos, publishing this article is not so much a success in the eyes of many people. Many people would advise me not to be so blunt, but this addiction is breaking me in two and I thought I would connect with all of you other men who are struggling and share heartfelt love.

I came across the preaching of grace from Andrew Wommack and Joseph Prince and they have helped me deal with my guilt and shame and have helped take some of the condemnation off my shoulders very well. Satan loves to have us in his trap and in his shame. And it just affects our relationship with Christ.

How can we be pure in spirit, pure in heart and yet watch naked women perform? How can we walk down the street and look at women in a correct and healthy way when so many times we look at women and girls in a not so healthy way?

“I am the righteousness of God in Christ!” Joseph Prince has told me to tell myself and one day my body will align and fulfill what I say. I hope so.